I've been wanting to say this since like forever.
So, this is honestly, my biggest insecurity. It's about my body. Ah yes you might be thinking, " typical teenage youngsters". No, my body size problem is not about losing weight. It's actually about gaining weight. ahaaa, that's something different than what you usually hear. Wherever i go, people will be like,
"EH WHY YOU SO SKINNY AH"
"Eww, gain some weight plz."
" No wonder no one wants to be your boyfriend"
And i admit, those shits hurt. Alot. So, these few days i've been lying about my weight. Going around telling everyone that i'm not severely underweight. And they're all like,
" SERIOUS? "
Well, this is how it goes. I'm 90 pounds and i''m 160 cm high. Yes, i also lied about my height. One of my insecurities. Anyways, well, i actually also get annoyed. When people keep saying stuff like " I want your thigh gaps"
Miss, you can have it all you want as long as you give me your fats. I hate it when people go around saying stuff like.
" We shouldn't look down on fat people"
like dang people, i agree too but then they look down on Skinny people who are actually trying to fucking gain weight and not trying to starve themselves to death because they think they're fat but they're actually not. And no, i don't fucking care if you're Fat, obese, or even anorexic. No i don't. Just, its one of my insecurities whenever i look in the mirror and see my bones sticking out all that shit. And sometimes, sometimes, i even lie to myself by saying things like,
" whoo, girl i can eat alot"
" Yay i'm fat ((:"
When actually all of that is wrong. I'm not fat. I'm just filled with bones. And that's just fucking sad that's its funny. And i wanna say these things to all the people out there having the same insecurities about body size, Big or Small, You are amazing. I wouldn't say perfect because the only people who are perfect in our eyes are people we actually meet and know and love. So i want to meet all of you. And remember this,
" Go je don't scared "
which just practically means in another way,
" Now go order some fucking pizzas to your house and eat the hell out of it alone (((:"
"EH WHY YOU SO SKINNY AH"
"Eww, gain some weight plz."
" No wonder no one wants to be your boyfriend"
And i admit, those shits hurt. Alot. So, these few days i've been lying about my weight. Going around telling everyone that i'm not severely underweight. And they're all like,
" SERIOUS? "
Well, this is how it goes. I'm 90 pounds and i''m 160 cm high. Yes, i also lied about my height. One of my insecurities. Anyways, well, i actually also get annoyed. When people keep saying stuff like " I want your thigh gaps"
Miss, you can have it all you want as long as you give me your fats. I hate it when people go around saying stuff like.
" We shouldn't look down on fat people"
like dang people, i agree too but then they look down on Skinny people who are actually trying to fucking gain weight and not trying to starve themselves to death because they think they're fat but they're actually not. And no, i don't fucking care if you're Fat, obese, or even anorexic. No i don't. Just, its one of my insecurities whenever i look in the mirror and see my bones sticking out all that shit. And sometimes, sometimes, i even lie to myself by saying things like,
" whoo, girl i can eat alot"
" Yay i'm fat ((:"
When actually all of that is wrong. I'm not fat. I'm just filled with bones. And that's just fucking sad that's its funny. And i wanna say these things to all the people out there having the same insecurities about body size, Big or Small, You are amazing. I wouldn't say perfect because the only people who are perfect in our eyes are people we actually meet and know and love. So i want to meet all of you. And remember this,
" Go je don't scared "
which just practically means in another way,
" Now go order some fucking pizzas to your house and eat the hell out of it alone (((:"
Don't listen to what others say about you and just eat that pizza like the fabulous person you are.
It's better if you order them around and say.
/ Fallen Angel writing on behalf of Nina /